Greetings, my lovely!
One of the things I struggle with and that's absolutely necessary for my mental health is a daily schedule. When I get up, when I eat meals, and when I go to bed. I need a routine for the day, including specific ones for when I wake and before bed. Having a magickal practice is helping with this.
I keep track of all the things I need to do for self-care on an app called Finch. It's cutesy and game-like, and it satisfies the 90s middle-schooler in me that wanted a Tamagotchi so badly but knew my asshole father would make fun of me for it. Now I have my little finch in this app, and I also have a to-do list for big things and small things. Right now, I have everything from reminders for individual bills and to apply for the car loan we want to brush my teeth, floss, wash, dress for the day, and what chores I need to do so I can work my way through the housecleaning. I get great satisfaction from checking things off my to-do list and having this app makes it even better.
My bedtime routine lasts about an hour. It's the most important of the day because of the painful difficulty I have sleeping. I take my medication, brew some bedtime tea with valerian and chamomile among other things, put on pajamas, brush my teeth, and wash my face. Then I get in bed with my tea and read, usually until an hour after I've taken my medication. Then I'm hopefully very sleepy, and I take melatonin chewable tablets, turn on nature sounds that will play all night, and close my eyes. Normally between my medication, the tea, and the melatonin, I'm out like a light. This video is my favorite for sleeping right now:
My morning routine is longer. It lasts a few hours. I drink coffee or tea, play hidden object games to help wake up my brain, meditate and journal, and plan my day. For my meditation, I turn on music—often the following video—and light some incense. Then I close my eyes and relax my mind. I'll either find myself at the tropical cove to see my spirit guide or at the cabin in the field to see the mysterious man who has remained hidden. They teach me about myself, life, and show me things I need to work on.
With the beginning of my day focused on this meditation that includes an intention and giving gratitude, it changes my attitude for the day. I go about my day more focused and determined. I complete more tasks and take care of myself better.
I've begun to think more of the future as definitive rather than impossible dreams. I think about what I want as a goal rather than a wish or a dream. This is big for me because I've lived my entire adult life in poverty, at times only surviving with the help of family members sending us money so we could pay our rent. I believe we honestly both have trauma from sitting so low in poverty for so damn long. We've almost given up hope at this point. And now, my attitude has changed from hopelessness to determination. I'm still traumatized, but now I'm taking action, not just figuratively sitting in the mud and crying.
My hope is that this change continues. The Full Moon—the Harvest Moon—is this Friday. I'm very excited, and my goal for the next few days is to learn all I can about the Harvest Moon and design a spell appropriate for this particular moon. Honestly, that's been half the fun of beginning this practice!
Have a blessed day!
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