Greetings! I am what's known as a "baby witch" and this blog will be my journey in witchcraft as I grow and understand the practice more. It will also document my process of self-discovery, self-improvement, and (hopefully) improved mental health through witchcraft.
While I am a "baby witch," I am not new to witchcraft. I am about to turn 41, but when I was 19, I discovered Wicca and how it aligned perfectly with my views on life, a higher power, and the universe. So I began to practice. That was in college, and years later, I found a Cabbalistic coven that I practiced with for a couple of years. Then, I was pulled in by the LDS Church and spent 7 long years there. I left around New Year's 2016. Now nearly 8 years later, I feel the draw of nature pulling me—back to my roots and the practice that made me feel so centered in my early twenties.
Figuring out what this draw was took months of all the signs pointing me in this direction, with more and more signs landing one on top of another.
After only a few weeks, I feel more centered and at peace in a way I haven't felt in years. My husband has noticed, too. He told me when we were celebrating Mabon that I seemed lost and that now I have a path again. That's very accurate for the way I feel.
My husband has been extremely supportive and honestly excited about this new path in my life. That makes me happy because perhaps we can do it together, even if he's not doing spells himself.
I already have a spirit guide whom I speak to and learn from in a tropical cove where I go in meditation. He is a great teacher, and I've enjoyed his company for years. Now, I seem to also be communicating with another male figure in a field with long grass and an ancient, one-room cabin. He has remained hidden from me in my meditations—in shadows, covered in cloaks, etc. He tells me he will reveal himself when I'm ready. I'm curious, but I will be patient.
Outside of witchcraft, I am a highly creative person. I consider myself a writer—it is my passion and what I want my career to be. I'm working on a book series at the moment, and I'm having so many bumps and setbacks along the way that I'm getting very discouraged.
I also knit, crochet, and cross-stitch. My plan for the near future is to set up an Etsy shop to sell my creations. I actually would love to design witchy things for people to buy, like scarves with the triple moon or horned god symbols, shawls with the pentacle on the back, etc.
My newest hobby is nature photography, and I love to go to the parks or forest preserves and take photos of the beauty of the place where I live.
Otherwise, I am a housewife.
The reason I do not work is due to my mental health. I have bipolar disorder and a rather crippling case of PTSD that results in overwhelming anxiety, hyperawareness of the world around me, and a tendency to obsess over anything and everything that could go disastrously wrong. I have rather severe insomnia due to both trauma and bipolar disorder. I also suffer from crippling migraines.
Learning to manage life with all that has proved impossible at this point, even after twenty years of treatment, including some intense daily therapy as I joined a residential program for over a year. I've been hospitalized a dozen times.
Through witchcraft, I hope to improve my life. For me, witchcraft is about living intentionally and using the power of the mind for self-improvement. From a psychology perspective, magick is about the person's mindset and whether they believe the action will work--much like prayer in Abrahamic traditions.
Almost as soon as I accepted this path, I began to research. I found this video by The Witches' Cookery on the first day and was fascinated.
This witch, Bex, has a Witchcraft 101 playlist of her own videos that are incredibly helpful for a baby witch like me.
Through watching this video, I found several areas of witchcraft I was interested in: kitchen witchery, cottage/hearth witchery, and green witchcraft. Research with other sources pointed me toward lunar witchcraft and water witchcraft as well.
My spirit guide advised me to focus on the kitchen, cottage, and lunar witchcraft for the time being, so I don't complicate my life too much. I agreed, and with where we live, it would be difficult to practice green witchcraft.
But lunar witchcraft has been my main focus thus far. I've planned everything around the moon (except our Mabon celebration) and it feels natural to do so. I have a lunar calendar app that helps me called MoonX, and I really like it. The moon is so powerful, and I'm excited to use it to assist me in my endeavors.
I'm having fun as well as feeling more in control of my life. I feel like I have purpose again, and a way to improve my life. I feel like I can take control and make things happen.
So mote it be.
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